Yunn Writes

Read the story here:  https://yunn0510writes.blogspot.com/2023/02/to-days-i-felt-lost.html  Event 1 Never felt much anxiety before, so when I first feel the anxiety I don't know what to do. Action taken:  1. Face the anxiety, review on personal performance/ expectations/ feelings/ major encounters.  2. Find out what is the root cause to what happened. Define it as detailed as possible, what/ why/ where/ when/ who/ how.  3. Look for solutions and act on the solution.  Event 2 Having high expectation of myself. (This has been an old habit of mine)  Action taken:  1. Accept that either I am just like that or do more to reach that expectation.  2. Occasionally do reality check to make sure that my expectation is not unrealistic.  3. Create small goals or steps, achieve it step by step, there is no shortcuts.  Event 3  Fear of adulting / fear of unknown.  Action taken:  1. Be willing to learn, learn anything and everything...

It's like finishing a 800m track, I'm at the finishing line, neither top runners nor the last.  The slight happiness for completing the course, I felt proud of myself, but anxiety strike as soon as I remember that I'll be leaving this track to somewhere unknown... A little bit of background The one con of schooling system (in my opinion) is that, I am placed into this track, and I got so used to this one direction. Ever since primary school, participating in competitions, scoring in exams, be discipline, earn higher positions, and so on filled up my school life and created who I am today.  I would say, my primary and secondary schools aren't top-tiered school. Hence being the top student there doesn't boost much of my confidence, plus I never did well in off-campus competitions. Which I come to terms with myself that I'm might be above average or maybe average, since I'm not at the top (from my perspective).  The idea lead me to think of university as a bigg...